Daily Archives: 13. Januar 2010

Souvenir

 Sommer

I remember golden evenings by the lakes of the Grunewald, when the day stretched on, lazy as we were. What a different city Berlin becomes in the summer, full of outdoor happenings, infinite possibilities. When I think these thoughts in the middle of January, I know I can’t leave the city like it is, cold. I think I must stay and have another beer down by the lake.

Ich erinnere mich an goldene Abende an den Seen des Grunewalds, an denen der Tag sich ausdehnte, genauso faul wie wir waren. Berlin wird wie eine andere Stadt im Sommer voll von Outdoor-Aktivitäten, unendlich vielen Möglichkeiten. Wenn ich diesen Gedanken in der Mitte des Monats Januar denke, weiss ich, ich kann die Stadt nicht verlassen, wie sie jetzt ist, kalt. Ich glaube, ich muss bleiben und noch ein Bier unten am See trinken.

Depressed..

So, after 4 months of living in Germany.. im getting the cultural shock now, the cold weather, the cold feelings, the loneliness..  I come from the middle east,  I didnt really like it there, no freedom.. too much gossip.. too many limits.. I couldnt bare it, I’ve always felt I belong to Europe, I had to leave. I came to Germany.

The first 3 months were full of fun, travelling, partying, new friends.. Then came the fourth month, it got really cold, friends started getting drunk everytime we go out, some became aggressive and let out ugly stuff.. I ran out of money after xmas in Switzerland and loads of shopping.. I gained some weight.. and became emotionally exhausted.

In a month, Ill fly back home.. back to where the sun in shinning, but where my freedom is not complete.. and I dont know, am I looking forward to go there, or I am just looking forward to leave this place for a while.. I have no idea where do I belong more, or where do I feel less strange..

ok! enough depression! Now im busy learning German.. its nice, I like the language :) Today i had a complete conversation in German with a woman on the train! how awesome is that? :)